I think I've got it. I mean, I'm not going to be dancing in the streets anytime soon. But, the last couple of days have given me hope. I am seriously lacking in sleep as Christopher is determined not to sleep more than a couple hours at a time at night still. :( But, I've found yesterday and today that if I give myself little goals things are getting accomplished.
So, while I'm nursing Christopher to go down for his morning nap in my head I'm making a general list of things I want to do today. Then I try to break it down so I don't get overwhelmed. 1) browning the ribs and getting them in the crock pot for dinner tonight 2) writing my blog post while entertaining the baby who didn't want to go down for a nap after all (yes I'm multi-tasking right now!!!) 3) when Dominic wakes up go for a walk with the boys. That'll end the morning. After lunch I'll make a new short list and go from there.
I still have to turn on a movie or SpongeBob to entertain Dominic while trying to get Christopher to sleep sometimes, but you know what? I'm OK w/ that. I know "they" say that too much screen time is bad for kids, but "they" are not in my house dealing with my boys and figuring things out. If I leave Dominic free to roam around in his area, he kind of freaks that he's alone and gets upset. If there is something on he watches it and then I don't have to be completely stressed while nursing Christopher feeling like Dominic is being neglected. And the less stress that I feel, the better I do with everything.
Finding your rhythm with your vocation is hard, being a stay-at-home mom and wife is hard, but I'm sure being a working outside the home mom is hard too just in a different way. Let's face it...parenting is hard work. The Church tells us that our job as parents is to instruct our kids in the Faith and help get them to Heaven, but you know what? I think that they are doing much more to get me to Heaven.